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This week was intense. Everything happened so fast.

I'm having doubts whether !@#$ does exist. With everything going around the world, my beliefs are starting to change its path. But whether which path i will took, i havent decide yet. I will put all my faith on the upcoming weeks. The next two weeks, i will decide on my mission and aim to accomplish it.

I hate it when you enter a room, then everyone in the room stares at you like you are a weirdo. I don't blame them for staring, i do it all the time.

I have just finished watching this show called iris. It was one of the best show i've watch. I do hope that something like this will happen in the future. And i wished to be a part of it. I do know that this is unrealistic, but it is possible in the present that it is happening.

Honestly, i have never ever think of doing engineering, accounting, etc. I am not curious of how it feels like of doing this kind of job. The only job that i feel curious is the feeling of becoming a part of an organization that is a secret to the society. Something like alqaeda but with different targets. Something that is important and something that you can put your life on. I know that in my current state, it seems impossible and very ambitious but sometimes i feel that.......

For me, if there were something good to happen, i need to sacrifice something first. It has always been my fate. Nothing good ever happens to me without a sacrifice or something i would lose. Well sometime ago, i was doing this computer exam that i had to complete to begin the next level. While waiting for the exam, i had to sit with unknown people in that room. Because they were all waiting to do their exam. And you know in every story there are always a girl or a boy. As i sat down, looking at her several times. My fate was already set. I know that in order to get that girl, i had to sacrifice something. And that sacrifice must be the same level as getting that girl. I finally conclude that there were two choices for me at that same day. It was either passing the exam or getting the girl. I had to choose between them two. But i decide that choosing to pass the exam is more wise. Because of my schedule, if i had failed the exam, everything will be messed up, my schedule will need to be reschedule. So i didn't want to fail the exam, so i concentrate on passing that exam. After passing the exam, i tried to find the girl but it was too late.

Oh darn school starts soon, i wish my school would just explode. I guess that i went to the wrong school. I don't know why fate set me this school.